The Sour Truth

     Everyone is still having trouble with Master Ellis’ death. If my parents would allow it, I would have spent all day today and tomorrow at MSA. Seeing as I am unable to do just that, I will convince them to take me to the memorial Saturday. If I fail to be there, I will never forgive myself. Sure, not many people ever cared about me there but in a time of grief such as this, I have forgotten all of that. I only hope that I can be strong enough for all of them because just this morning, my dog has been having trouble. She couldn’t walk because of her leg and she’s still having trouble breathing. If it worsens even a tiny bit more, Mom is going to have her put down. After almost 11 years…It’s just too much for me to handle at a time like this and while my tears fall for her, I feel completely guilty. This is a time for MSA and my friends to mourn about Master Ellis. They shouldn’t be worried about how I feel for my beloved pet. I know I am going to be stretched to my limit for the next week or so. I just hope I’m strong enough to not lose it.

Master Ellis, R.I.P.

     Manatee School for the Arts Tae Kwon Do teacher, Kenneth Ellis, was murdered outside of his home. Here is the article and I ask you to read it.   I was a student of MSA and knew Master Ellis, though I was not as close to him as many others were.  All the evil in the world and all of the bad events seem to happen to the best people. Those two men shall be found. R.I.P. Master Ellis. MSA and everyone who’s ever crossed paths with you miss you dearly. Thank you for all of the lessons you have bestowed upon us all and we will never forget you. To view everyone’s comments who knew Master Ellis, please traverse to!/home.phpsk=group_121502537924143&notif_t=group_activity. All of your prayers and good thoughts are greatly appreciated. Today is a very sad day. The memorial is being held on this Saturday, April 2nd, 6:30-9:30pm at MSA in the Tae Kwon Do room.

Black Lightning

The movie Black Lightning was surprisingly good! It’s a combination of Herbie, Harry Potter, and Spiderman all rolled up in a foreign film. Here’s the description along with a picture of it(just scroll down to find the description near the bottom): If you haven’t already seen it and there’s a point in time where there are no new movies out that you want to see, definitely rent this movie.


     Dreary weather since late last night hasn’t been helping my attitude much. It matches my mood though. I used to love the light then hard pitter-patter of rain, the fierce flashes of lightning that brightens a room for a split moment, and the abrupt BOOM of thunder that’s occasionally so strong it vibrates the house. After spending two full days in the sun, you’d think that it’d be the perfect lazy and rainy Monday. For me, it’s going downhill in the last evening hours. Kelly wrecked his car (still don’t have many details about that), he of course called his mommy and drove his wrecked car back through the pouring rain to get a new set of tires all the way across town which he’ll change at his work tomorrow, the MegaMind movie we’re renting is ridiculously scratched up, and Kelly has mom running errands for him. Everything is completely messed up. It’s kind of like I’m thrown into one of my own stories that I’m never going to finish because the ending I envisioned for it isn’t a happy one that everyone would expect. Some good things will come out of this, but a lot won’t. I’ve cracked so many times in the last few months that I’m completely ashamed. So, this time I need to get my act together and roll with the punches. I already know what to expect but I keep acting like I don’t. Let me just tell you now: I hate emotions. Kelly and his family know precisely how to play on them which is why I am going to “turn to stone.” Also, I am going to publish a book BEFORE I turn 18. I’m tired of Kelly and his family putting every road block possible in my way. That goes for everyone else too. Find your inner strength and use it well.

Happy Birthday, Nicole!!!

     A big round of applause and congratulations to my dear friend Nicole F. who is exactly a week younger than me! Happy 17th!! We don’t talk as much anymore but I will always love you like a sister and have always missed you dearly when you’re not by my side! I’m sending a GIANT virtual hug your way! I can’t believe how much time has passed and I’ll always remember how everyone thought we were sisters because we had the same last name, lol! You are truly awesome and you start your senior year in August! I wish you lots of luck, hugs and kisses, and a very happy year! I love you and once more, Happy Birthday! ;p

Nothing As Planned

     Well, nothing went as planned (I ended up not leaving the house at all, so far) but Mom may have found herself a part-time job. She’s still out and about now but maybe I can convince her to drive me all over town to apply for jobs for me. ;p I just have to keep reminding her that I can’t get my own car until I get a job, lol!


     So, I think I’m postponing going to FSU for a year because of all the turmoil going on around me. Therefore, I’m going to MTI this morning to take a few classes there. It should be interesting, I just can’t forget to take my diploma with me… I’ll let you know how it goes when I get back. ;p

Beach Day

     After the yard sale yesterday, I was totally wiped out and couldn’t even get myself to blog a few sentences. So I’m blogging today even though I’ve done even more, lol! The yard sale lasted from about 6am-3pm instead of 8am-2pm. It was exhausting and we still didn’t sell nearly enough. However, we did sell a lot and now the “garage (aka den-like area)” has a clear path from the door into the house to the outer wall. It’s a miracle that that was even possible, lol! I’ve met a lot of interesting people in the past two days and I’m kind of looking forward to it this coming weekend because of that. So! After all the yard sale stuff left behind but still yearning for homes was put away neatly, I had a couple of hours to myself to go through papers before Josh invited me to go to the beach. I felt too tired but I decided to go anyway because I hadn’t been in a while. I’ve been getting a lot of sun for the past two days (yesterday and today) because of standing out in the sun doing the yard sale stuff and then the beach for a couple hours. Amazingly…(drum roll), I DIDN’T get sunburned!!! I didn’t use sunscreen at all, lol, and even when I do, I still get burned. I have no idea why I got lucky today. After the beach, we went to Tyler’s for ice cream and Miss Carrie is the awesomest (<- yes, I used that word) person ever (besides mom of course, ;p). She really truly is and I am jealous of Josh that he gets to spend so much time with her. If I could, I’d kidnap her! Well, I’m over and out. I’m heading off to sleep early and I’m sleeping in. Have to be prepared for another day with Josh (tomorrow!). I hope everyone’s having a great weekend so far! ;p

Umm, Ouch

     We’re looking for a place to move into to get away from Kelly. Finding jobs in this economy is pretty much hopeless. I don’t have any college experience (as of yet, have to have 4 years in order to work at any type of company) and mom has to return to school as well to learn the new prescriptions (pharmacy technician) in order to get certified for this state. It’s been fun. I don’t even want to talk about Kelly again at this point in time. Sassy isn’t handling this lack of attention very well (he only spends five seconds petting her before going off to do something or other that’s pointless) so she ends up sleeping with me each night now. Let’s see how fair that is: twin-sized bed versus king-sized bed. Guess who’s got the king-sized one. Yep, he does. Lovely, isn’t he? Plus, my allergies have been getting worse (allergic to pets and pollen yet I have a dog, lol). It’s all fun and games. Just wait until the tables turn. This weekend we’re having a yard sale (tomorrow and Sat.) and hopefully we’ll get enough money. I’m having a hell of a time trying to lift boxes or anything else even though my little skating accident happened on Sunday. I failed to mention that earlier but I fell on my back and knocked the air out of me. My back still hurts but my right hip isn’t as bad anymore (had to drag my leg because I couldn’t pick it up because of the pain). I bruised my ribs, lol! It was definitely…interesting. I haven’t had that type of pain before but in some ways, it’s good. I’m not even going to go into what Kelly and his mommy said about all of that (they could care less basically). We’ve been going and looking at condos/apartments around town and may have found one but I honestly don’t think my mom’ll go for it. We’ll have to see. Have a great Friday and weekend, everyone! ;p

My Lips Are Sealed

     I have a fantastic idea for a book but it’s not fantasy or even fiction. It’ll be nonfiction, if you can believe that. Yes, this is still me so no need to get concerned. I’m not going to post the idea here but am going to play with it and see where it leads first. So, I’m sharing some random things today because I’ve had such a horrible day. Hopefully they’ll make you laugh and the first one (the “Nothing Happened” sign, I took while in St. Augustine. (Note: Click the last photo and it will show you a larger version so you can read it.)