Well, I’m having a serious lack of inspiration to finish Book One at this point in time. I don’t know why it’s happening but it feels the same as when I stopped writing for nine months. I don’t have that kind of luxury this time though, lol. So, one way or another, Book One will be completed by the end of this month. I’ve been procrastinating long enough on it and it’s not going to write itself.
I’m sure that you’ve noticed how popularity works by now. When you can meet someone who’s a nobody and then that person ends up being like J.K. Rowling, John Cena, Taylor Swift, etc. But don’t you find it odd that once that person is a somebody, they don’t have much time to actually meet people like us? Ones that are inspired by them? No, they go to large cities that they know will promote them financially instead of going to small towns where their biggest fans are. Most can’t afford to go and see them in Tallahassee, Florida; Nashville, Tennessee; Dallas, Texas; New York, New York; etc. I understand that most ‘somebodys’ are extremely busy. Well guess what. Your fans are what is keeping you afloat and you should meet as many as you possibly can. Being in the entertaining business is hard but when you have fans that are extremely enthusiastic about your work, it can be both easier and a bit more stressful. Also, when your fans send you letters, actually answer them all, even if you get thousands, instead of discarding most of them.
First of all, addressing the situation with my father. I have decided that I will not meet his girlfriend or her kids. When he picks me up from the airport on the 7th, I am going to tell him just that. I’ll also tell him that I don’t care if he’s happy or not and to have a nice life. I’m getting tired of him trying to uphold an act of kindness towards me for his girlfriend. I’m tired of playing their games and I’m not going to do that.
Next, my book. My plan is to have Book One, The Dragonscale, completed by the end of this month. Then, I will have the final draft completed by mid-January. If all goes well, I will also have a publisher by at least April and Book One will be published by the end of 2012. Completed, Book One will be about 100,000 words which is considered a novel. I still don’t know how long Book Two or Book Three are going to be but I’m guessing around the same length. I’ve already been told by several people that my plan isn’t going to be possible. If it can be thought of, it can be achieved. They also forget that I’ve already graduated school so I don’t have that as a distraction. My paternal family on the other hand are causing a big distraction. As long as I manage to stay focused, I can get all of this done. I might push myself a little more than usual but when I do finally complete my goal, I’ll just prove to myself that I can do anything I set my mind to, regardless of what other experienced people tell me. Those are the people who don’t know me personally.
So, I know a lot about Kelly’s girlfriend and two other daughters now. Charmaine Mallet Musumeche and her daughters Kristy and Ashley plus Kelly equals the perfect little family. Am I completely and utterly pissed right now? Yes I am. Especially since he has lied to me and said he’s only been dating Charmaine for a month when it has been over a year. I fly back to Florida on the 7th and I’m supposed to go karaoking with all four of them on the 9th. This will be fun, not. My mom is pissed off at me after she agreed that we should know more about them. I’m at the point where I’m going to do what I want now. I’m almost 18 and it’s about time I start stepping up for myself and saying exactly what I want and don’t want. I don’t want to meet them but I am going to meet them just once to be polite and to figure out why Kelly prefers Kristy and Ashley over me. That’s obvious as they are thin as rails and look like models whereas I’m overweight and ordinary-looking. Kelly’s mom is already bffs with her new granddaughters on Facebook and I still want to know why the hell my own family has never been able to love me. Oh that’s right. I’m collateral damage because of my mom. Those bastards. I’ve shed more tears than I ever should have and I’m not proud of that fact. They’ll never know how much they’ve hurt me (nor will they ever care) but everything will bite their asses off in a few years. You can be sure of that.
Well, it’s December already, everyone. How many of you have finished your Christmas shopping? How many of you are already tired of all of the Christmas music that plays in every single store? How many of you are looking forward to the New Year? I’m still having a hard time believing that another year has already flown past. Spend this month remembering what you did this year and making your list of ten goals for the next year. You’ve got an extra day next year to complete all ten of them so use your time wisely. It’s all about self-discipline. I hope everyone has a good month, Christmas, and New Year’s.